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Saturday, February 2, 2008

Focusing on forgiveness

Jesus was nailed to the cross, nails driven through this hands and feet and a throne cramped upon his head. He shed his blood for us and took the pain that was unspeakable. but his last request was that when he looked upon the heavens above he asked his Father "Forgive them, for they do not know". I had no anger, resentment, or hate-dread. He only wanted his Father to forgive them for what they have done.

Having enemies and hatred causes stress, frustration and pain upon only yourself, but for some reason it has been a difficult task to release that anger and resentment of the past experiences. Some reason I feel I deserve the misery it causes, maybe I like being miserable, depressed and in pain. Its sad how wanting to be miserable and depressed is where I keep myself, when all I have to do is release it.

We all know we are sinners, we were born a sinner, but life to learn that resentment, hate-dread, and anger only brings us sorrow and our own pain.

The enemies that surrounded him, were confused of his belief. Forgiveness may seem like an easy lesson in life, but to "let go and let God" take over with his wisdom and his guide-ness will lead us to the promised land.

I've come to realize that I need to review the 12 step program of addictions. Healing myself with his power and his divine guide-ness is the answer. At the moment I suffer because of anger, frustration and hurt, but Jesus suffered on the cross with extreme pain. My lesson/task would think to be just a simple prayer.

"Forgive me Lord, the pain that your son Jesus Christ suffered is nothing compared to the pain and suffering I am going through."

I stop in a moment of silence, pause, listening to quietness but the crackling of the fire through the wood stove. I bow my head low and open up the palms of my hand and thank him for having a roof over my head, my children are safe and food to eat. Then I ask in his name that he forgive those that have hurt me in the pass and to forgive me for my wrongdoings.

Releasing the anger, hurt, and the pain and Frustration, I ask for his divine guide-ness and wisdom to direct me to the path he has chosen for me in the beginning. I have lost my way with emotions that clouded my mind and my thoughts. Wrapping myself into a turmoil of disaster and mostly pain.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
--Reinhold Niebuhr

There is something I have done for years and that is "surrounding myself with divine guide-ness" my children, family, and friends. It has always calmed me. But that is just a technique that my Mother taught me, as she has always taught me to follow his guide-ness and listen to his wisdom.

My Mother told me several times that;
" For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible...everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him"

She has told me many quotes that she really doesn't even think that I remember.
I thank my Mother for who I am today and what I will become, with her guide-ness through God.

"Unless you assume a God, the question of life's purpose is meaningless."

"Don't let the errors of evil people lead you down the wrong path and make you lose your balance."
2 Peter 3:17 (CEV)

I once met a woman that I did respite care for her husband and they were 12 hour shifts, so I spend awhile with her. She was always reading the bible, so I asked her how many times she had read it and she said 38 times and she was on her 39 time, and half way through it. She said that each time she had read it, she received different messages and new understandings. I admired her strength.

Your spiritual family is even more important than your physical family because it will last forever.

I have a problem with blocking out my whispering voice of truth and taking the advice of the loud voice which only causes me confusion and sometimes a disaster.

So I will continue tomorrow, because tomorrow will be a better day...*smile*

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